What is it that I’m trying to say? Sometimes I feel like I have all these emotions bottled inside of me and I just want to shatter that bottle and let it all out, be free. But all these feelings are just weird ideas. This post will probably make no sense to anyone that reads it and I think the fact that I’m sitting here writing this makes me wish I was back out there. The month that I spent on the trail, was rough, awesome. messy, dirty, fun, magnificent, it was one of the best experiences of my life. I want to feel the same way I did than, not having a care in the world was amazing. It was just our gear, Adam and I. No jobs, no bills, no nothing. Just us exploring nature and just living. I guess is that feeling of being free that I miss. I miss just being able to walk, to admire nature, and to know that the next day would be a same, yet different. We never went back where we came from, we always walked somewhere new.
I don’t dislike the life I live now. I love the opportunities life has presented me with and the challenges that I had to deal with, but no matter how much we make, the events we attend, or the things we buy, nothing compares to having the life of a nature wanderer. I miss it, and I guess part of me didn’t want to admit it. I love walking for miles admiring new landscapes, experiencing the changes of the weather, knowing that every step I take, takes me closer to a new place, a new adventure.
Even though there were many times I wanted to get back, I don’t regret any moment I spent on that trail. Not the blisters, the soreness, the sunburns, the times I wish I had an extra large pepperoni pizza and a Dr. Pepper for dinner, or even when we got caught in the rain and all our stuff got wet. It was from moments like those I learned many things about myself. I had so much time to think, to reflect on my life and the path I wanted to take. The ideas I had, the goals I wanted to achieve and I think it’s time to really take all of that and focus on the things I want to do. I may not be able to be on the trail anytime soon, nor will I most likely do the same trail, but I honestly plan on going back to that liberating state of mind, to appreciate what surrounds me and not the material things around me. Obviously, we are not going to relocate or quit our jobs, but I feel like I personally need to stop wasting time on mindless things and focus more on the things that make me happy.